memories

2009-08-07T21:47:00.002+08:00

i'm so stress!!!
argh i dunno why but i feel damn stress suddenly hahas.
suddenly i think tat i might nt make it to year 3.
the final test is ard the corner,
yet i m not even working hard omg!
i feel so dumb2 lol.

been moody the whole day todae,
dun ask me why cos i really dunno.
other than stress arhs i dunno wat's the reason le lol.
school is fine for today,
jus hat tha workload is too much!
really makes my head explode arhs to disgest the whole thing hahas.
maybe i got stress cos of this stupid thing.
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honey,u may not know it just now.
but you make me feel so safe & relieve when you're by my side.
i'm so sorry i m so so moody!
hope you understand kays love.

i smiled when i hug u jus nw,
ur warmth & love saved me honey<3
i love you!

2009-08-02T14:06:00.002+08:00

once agian i am back into this lil space where i would write some things here once in a while hahas.
it was rather plain for these few weeks
only a major thing happened to me a week ago or so lol
My phone was severely damaged due to tat & suffer injuries from head to toe peace.
BUT!
i finally got my new fone le hehe
LG Cookie,so so happy!
well gotta pay my parents back for tha money,
cos i nid a fone urgently lol.
so they paid for me first.

sch hols coming soon!woots so happy hahas.
finally can get alot of rest & wake up laate le=)

my injuries r killing me,
i think i hab a sprained ankle or smth.
my heart aches cos my bicycle is smashed sobs sob LOL!
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i'm always here,being anything for u.
loving you,nids no reason.

2009-07-25T02:11:00.002+08:00

feel so bored tis days
completely no mood to post bout anything hahas
my blog nowadays seems so dead
nvm lahs i doubt anyone will be so dumb to come & read this silly things lol!

sch has been quite okays for me
still doesnt feel like going to school
seems so much like a burden to me LOL!!!
& i was chased home by my faci for lookin pale & tired!
well of cos it would be,cos i habnt been slpin well or restin well tis few days.
& i knw someone gonna nag at me after reading tis cos i m still up at tis time LOL!!!

cycling a lil for tha past few days wit jon kelv & jasper.
woots!so fun for me lol.
we cycle till our ass hurts for days hahas!
jasper's Hing red hare,such a killer to him.
ride a stunt bike next time my frenz LOL!
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u r always tha one who would brighten & fill tat black & white world of mine.
my life isnt complete w/o u my love.
wanna let u knw,
in my heart,there's only u & no one else<3
it a promise to u my dear!
love you lots<3
& DUN BECOME TOO LAZY HAHAS JKJK.

2009-07-06T00:25:00.002+08:00

YOYO!after a long long day i hab finally posted something once again.
tha bbq ytd was a great success!
quite a no. of ppl turn up for tha bbq
i would sae it was a big gathering for us tha 4B=)
thou i was rather tired,but it was all worth it hehe

preparation was done since morning
running ard to get tha things ready
setting up the place before hand under tha hot sun hahas
it was so so exciting
bbq runs smoothly in tha end
tha best part was there was a aunty who came to get free food
was quite piss off in tha first place
but due to me being too tired
i shall nt mind it too much lol

tha event ran till 11 plus at nitez
was rather late but i really hab fun there=)
met at plaza afterwhich to settle the money thing wit tha brothers hahas
den head back & slp hehe.
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i love your present alot
i'll cherish it alot too,it ur feeling n thots in it.
it was a good present to me=)
my love,u r all i ever desire & dream of<3
my heart is urs always,no other one could take it from u<3

aku cinta kau sayang<3

2009-06-09T20:15:00.002+08:00

alrite a lil smth i saw on tha net hahas which my friend gave me=)
some horoscope thingy which i find it to be quite true hehe
shall share it here too lol
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Time is precious for Virgo man and if you make him wait, he will consider that as an insult. He hates to hear criticism and hates to be criticize. If he is criticizing other people, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac. He is and he likes to be a perfectionist. He always think he is doing the right and appropriate thing , and often he thinks he makes no mistake. He is a bright guy and could accept comments if he thinks it can improve himself. He is the type who well adjusted to make changes.

He will spent money carefully and spent it worthwhile. He will only extravagant for his personnel pleasure only. He is quite romantic, a type of guy who can drive 100 miles just to tell you how much he misses you. If he does not care about you, he will not even spent a dime to call you locally. Long distant special low rate call is also out of the question.

He hates rough and crude people. His woman has to be clean and dress well.
He inspects any thing in details beside being a perfectionist, so you could be lying in your bikini with a perfect figure and he can suddenly comments you about your big feet. If you gain 2 pounds , he may comments you are getting too fat. Before going out with this kind of guy, look at yourself head to toe in the mirror and ask yourself if you are really and entirely ready. Unless he dates a model, then he will have less comments.

He is neat and tidy, so his life always in a schedule, a fix time to lunch, the same time to go home. He is well knowledge about food and conscious about nutrition, so you won't see this guy eating a junk food, or strange and exotic food for sure.

You will see him in social events or party if only necessary. He is gifted with acting, so if he says he can not go out with you because he is sick, then you will belief him. He is a hard to please when it comes to what to eat, how to work, what kind of a woman to date. He always neat and tidy all the times, even if he is in the army, he will be the cleanest soldier in the camp. He likes to speak properly with no slang. He hates laziness and lazy people. He always act like a boring mature adults, but getting to know him , you will know he has his own charm.

He always see things clearly, so he is not the type to be blinded by love. He is a kind and cool guy, but if constantly irritate with rudeness, ignorant, or stupidity then he will show you that he is annoyed. You may see a guy in this Zodiac dress up in an old shirt and old Jean, but if you look carefully, you will see that his hair is neat and unconsciously he will touch his hair a lot. His desk is always neat and if he sees small scrap paper on the floor, he will pick it up or put it in the basket.

People may think he is selfish, because when he says "No", he really means it. Any favor asked , he will help but always in his own limit. The more he see faults in others, the less he wants people to see his. If you want him to change his faults, try to tell him gently or he could take it as an insult.

He wants love that comes with quality, so he only has a few loves in his life. Woman's trick will not work with him. If he breaks up with a woman, he will also try to avoid all her friends and her environments too. He is very picky and every breaking up, he will be double careful next time.

He can sweep woman with his charm, but he likes to keep his relationship like a friend. He likes a sincere self confident woman, neat and clean, perfect and tidy. A real two "P" , picky and perfectionist Zodiac.
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somehow sound so true for mine hehe.

2009-06-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

i seriously dunno wat shld i write anymore!
it like blogging becomes somehow a lazy thing for me nowadays hahas
feel so lazy to write at times hehe

went for cycling wit kelv 2 days ago i think?
hahas & i suffer a near death experience!
damn it manz,nearly freak me out.
i swear i nt gonna overwork my body any longer hahas
it so super scary at tat moment!!!
went out wit them at nitez after tha cycling
hmm nv do anything much lahs
plainly walking ard n went home.

tis hols seems so short to me
only 2 weeks argh
so super sianz manz!
& i have been rotting at home most of the time lol
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alrite i dunno wat to sae manz hahas

2009-05-19T03:49:00.002+08:00

alright it is this late now
& i m still freaking awake!!!
okays due to my exercise jus nw
my body muscles are all energetic nw argh

so wat m i doin nw?
i cant believe i m reading shakespeare quotes at this hour LOL!
well it does seems interesting to me hehehe
i can say they were really hard to depict
& those poems seems so omg profound
dun ask me why m i so bo liao
cos i also dunno why hehe
gotta force myself to slp soon!
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3,2,1.....

2009-05-14T02:53:00.002+08:00

have been training for these past few days
omg it was so tiring & tough in tha beginning
but yeah now i manage to endure thru & gotten better le hehe
hope tat i could cont on!
muz help me arhs,motivate me to exercise hahahaha

school was fine these days
well it was much beta than i expected it is to be lol
guess i m too anti social in school le bahs
always shutting myself up
my proj scope is finally done,
next is to do on my report!
argh so many things to do
somemore it makes me so tired & sianz lol!
& i m hesitating of going school tml hehehe
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Q: how long hab we been tgt?
A: 1yr 3 mnths.

darling,we been tgt for so long le!we hab walked tis far & we'll walked down tha journey tgt even longer=)
i m really happy to have u by my side all this while hehe
u hab been my sweetest dear2<3

I LOVE YOU SAYANG!
you shone much brighter than a million stars in my heart!

2009-05-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

Okays,here's a lil something after being away from my blog for such a long time.
i am so lazy to type here even up till now,i wonder what has gotten into me though hahas.

Well basically school started about 2weeks ago & i am somehow still trying to get use to the environment in there once again.
However,due to the stupid time table the school gave me,i would have to change my classes everyday!
Which cause me so much troubles in remembering my classes for the day.
I wonder if there's anyway to reach compromises with the principal to have me just in one class LOL!
Though i am just stuck in my naive thoughts =\
Anyway on a more positive end,i enjoyed my modules & being in class.Though i am more to being an introvert hehe.
It takes time right,for everyone to get use to their surroundings.So yeah it is normal for me to be taking this time to get use to it.

Year 2 is going to be a very tough year,with projects & briefings,tough lessons & CE points to remember & completed.
For the first time in RP i felt so stressful,hmm in a exciting way i guess?
Studying is a bother & seems tedious to me all these while,but somehow i am beginning to get more interested in it.
Well the saying goes, "seek first to understand,then understood."
Woots i remember my lessons well,good job kunda=)

Project due-date is coming soon & i am still trying my hardest in understanding my topic & scope to cover.I wonder if i could do a good job for it,well anyway i will just put in my best efforts!

Oh one thing which i don't like most,SOH is going to be more 'professional' after being commented by some hotel manager or something?
To reflect better in the society,we are going to prepare everyone to dress professional.
Which means,i have to change my styles & all in school.Dressing in a more approperiate manner,in another words more formal & good looking.well that's what they presume will reflect upon our image.
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Tests are coming,& i am a little lagging behind.
So i would have to put in more efforts in chasing up.
I want to do well in my tests & hopes all my effort is going to pay off!
hahas.
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& you will always have my support,
there's no way i would leave you behind or alone.
i'll always be with you,from here on.
you would never be lonely anymore,
i wouldn't allow a single tears.
all i wish to bring to you,
is nothing but happiness.
MiLady,i love you.

2009-04-16T02:22:00.002+08:00

TIRED i am so so tired now
but i am lazy to sleep hehe
cos i wanna play game on FB hahas peace
i m so addicted to it sia now!
but it is real fun okays hehe

been heading out tis few days wit my best buddies
well nth to do at home so we jus go out n relax hehe
& because of tat i m so so damn tired le lol
always going to tha same place but somehow we dun feel sianz of it lehz
guess is becos we r always joking ard hehe peace
oh yea & we watch HANDSOME SUIT & The Sniper
okays i agree tat tha shows are damn epic.
i give them a thumbs up lol.

school is starting sooN!
makes me super lazy nw manz
i hate sch most,always so boring & plain.
if only there's not a need for education
den i can lead my super simple lifestyle & slack hehe
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& to my lil dear2 who is sick now,
please rem to take care of urself kays=)
I'm so worried bout u my lil honey<3

even if it tough,i'll always stay by ur side
holding u thru every up n down.
aku cinta kau<3

2009-04-02T22:39:00.003+08:00

YOYO!
& i just reached home after watching this extremely nice movie by jackie chan.
"Shinjuku Incident"
i could give this movie a 10/10 manz hahas.
super action packed & super jackie chan style.
well i alaways watch jackie chan show LOL!
Loyalty.Survival.Betrayal.
& i was like wow,cool hehe.
oh yeah i rem 1 line in tha show lol,i find it super cool!
"it time to show our samurai spirit!"
hahas i so love this show LOL!

well hab a few rounds of arcade beforehand cos we reached a lil early hehe.
me itchy hand cant tahan arhs hahas.
cant scold me kays!hehe.
& now i m so so tired le,
jus wanna hab a good rest lol.
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year 2 gonna be busy,
but i will always make time for you my sweet lil gal<3

2009-03-28T00:39:00.002+08:00

A high & mighty Prince
surrounded with nth but loneliness.
even a thousand worth of golds & warriors,
isnt enough to match his love for this sweet commoner.

& Raiisuke Mustang likes this=)!

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a simple thoughts i came up with,
so i wanna post it up here hahas!
i also dunno why,
but i find this very meaningful eh lol.
sound cool rite i know hahas
okays gotta cool down cos i think my brain sot tio liao
tat why can keep coming up with such 'poems' hahas.

2009-03-23T00:45:00.002+08:00

& so once again i m here to post hehehe
always took me a long long time before i can come in to write something here
cant be blame arhs cos i m always lazy lol

days were as plain as always
i wonder why?somehow i jus feel liddat hahas.
been heading outside wit my bros recently cos we seriously hab nth to do at home.
oh yeah n i was so so amazed by jus a game of initial D 5.
been so long ever since i touch or seen tha machine.
a mini gathering was held too by amanina n azlin
a bowling outing hahas
it was fun arhs tat day somehow lol.
i got a strike alrite,pro rite me hehe=)
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shall write more tml
i suppose?lol.

2009-03-12T02:16:00.002+08:00

& i m so so lazy nowadays to even enter my blogger acc.
omg how lazy can i really be hahas
well sometimes i really couldnt find wat to write
so yeah might as well not write anything
days seems plain n empty these hols
somehow it feels like i m not really enjoying myself
when i tried hard to lol.
somehow tis seems so confusing sey

it is nw 2.19am in tha morning
n i m here writing some random n silly things here
jus to pass time hehe
i m too used to sleeping late le now lol
& i hab a new nick name arhs,"alien"
hahas quite proud lehz to achieve tat name muahahahaha!

on tha other hand when i m having a lil fun
i m much more sad than my facial expression could show.
hais.
somewhere inside my heart,i miss my ah gong.

btw there's a bowling outing organised by amanina & azlin for the 4Bs.
so yeah if u happen to read this or wat,
please notify them if you r going or not.
thanks=)

2009-02-19T23:29:00.005+08:00

& i m always so lazy to post omg
i feel tat i hab become lazier n lazier as tha day pass hahas
& so yeah i m here to post again
my blog is so dead nowadays.

on a brighter note,i have been trying to make it a habit to go to gym everyday.
this is to keep myself fit n not becoming fatter day by day.
i hab such a big tummy which makes me depress!
thanks to those few brothers of mine,ron,kelv,jasper.H,jon.
always going gym tgt hehehe.
hope to slim down soon n become much more fitter!
days now are quite tiring,fulfilling but yet a lil empty?lol.
tiring cos i hab gym,fulfilling cos i hab my bros
but empty cos i didnt spend much time wit my lil gal.

here i wanna pray tat my grandpa will be fine & safe,
thou i wouldnt sae much at times but yet i m still quite wry.
hope he can get well soon.
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my lil lovely gal,
i'm missing u wit all my hearts
nv stopping for a lil while.
wit u right here by my side,
ur warm n love always fill me up.
i love you<3

2009-02-06T22:15:00.002+08:00

been on a long trip away from i also dunno wat i m talking LOL!
okays peace shall post a lil nw lors.
i always is tat lazy nowadays to post my bog.
dun ask me why cos it is jus my characteristic hehe.

okays anyway my hols started a week ago
omg i feel so so free~
but damn damn tired also...
staying up late,going out to pai nian,gaming whole nite & lazy to slp
was always thinking of enjoying myself instead of resting more
well i guess hols is a time of enjoyment for me?LOL.
i m a playful kid afterall hehe.
oh before i forgot,due to lack of exercise.
i hab become a lil fatter,which is so OMG!
somehow i feel like i hab to EXERCISE.
anyone willing to cycle with me?hehehe.

oh days nowadays seems much more fun.
hanging out in town,going to each other hs n all.
but my sweetest time is always wit YOU!
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i wanna spend much longer time wit u
those times we spend everyday tgt,
seems long yet short.
but it was surely tha sweetest moments i always hab.
honey thanks for all tha gentleness & sweetness u gave me,
i felt really happy to hab u by my side.
u show me how strong i could be,& how weak i m.
u shone love into my life,& chase away those fears in my eyes.
darling i love u!

2009-01-22T22:49:00.004+08:00

alright,hols coming soon i knw LOL
& i m so so excited about it
thou i hab not planned wat m i going to do
but yeah i m sure i gonna rest like a pig hehehehe!

oh yeah class is quite fun todae
well i m sure i did hab super lot of fun & getting high over lil things hahas
taken some photos in class wit them thou lol
shall upload them nw

A mini class photo taken lol
Well not everyone was inside there
Cos that was tha size of the class today.

2 guys jumping ard in class
Guess tat was so crazy manz LOL!
Me & chie kuan going crazy hehe

While murnie is trying to take his photo
Theirs is me jumping in from no where lol
M I super cool?LOL!!!jkjk.

A crazy group rite here hahas
A group of classmates wit tha faci lol

Formal type of photo shoot
Cool huh hehe
I guess I look so short in them sia peace
I feel so trauma hahas

photoshoot credited to murnie
hahas i didnt plaugerise arhs LOL!!!
cool manz
tml is going to be tha last day of school
kinda having a mix feeling inside me

well let see how it goes tml
till then=)
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my attention is gonna be on my lil honey
i wanna spend as much time as i could wit her=)

2009-01-01T14:26:00.002+08:00

& so i m finally so call awake after such a long long day ytd hahas
went out wit tha usual bunch of ppl to hab fun outside
wonder if it because i felt quite sick or wat
i couldnt really enjoy tat time lol peace.

first stop was at kallang
wit jon jasper n razak trying to become tha King Of Hammer
so funny lahs they,keep trying to whack tha scores hahas
oh yeah & jon scared tha hell out of a gal who was crossing by.
den hang ard in tha arcade for a while lors
hab dinner at KFC & off we go to marina

thinkin tat tha journey might be smooth
but to our surprises,tha whole marina till clarke quay area was so so flooded!
ppl sitting on tha grass,crowding ard tha pavement
worst of all,they even do a road block n diverted tha traffic
argh i can sae to be quite fed up cos we nid to make circles b4 able to get out of tat place
took NR3 at clarke quay back & slept almost as soon as i reached home
so so tired!

ohoh & lastly
2009 hab finally arrived
so yeah "happy new year" to everyone out there
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those promises i made,
those love i gave,
those words i said,
i meant it all.
i love u lots my lil gal<3

2008-12-30T00:29:00.000+08:00

alrite so gonna update this dead thingy for awhile lol
been so so damn long since i ever came inside here
okays peace i m a lazy guy hahas

spent all this few days like a rotting log
it either gaming or goin out
budden it fun at times too lol
wahhh i dunno wat to write much here sia
cos there's too many things to write liao
& i m so damn lazy to write it all out hehe
so when i m super bored,i will write all out here hahas

shall update asap again
so yeah till then hehe

2008-12-04T11:20:00.002+08:00

hey hey once again a good welcome back to me LOL!
after dunno like one hell of a long time i finally rem to post hahas peace.
& of cos there's stories i will share manz
a super kuku & funny thing last nite lol

so yeah wenta meet razak ron & jasper x 2
hab our dinner at plaza and yeah rest awhile n off for our run lol
i knw i dun look like those tat run but yeah i DO okays hahas
chat while running,joking ard and doing those nonsense things
omg it so so much fun manz,cool!
& guess wat when we enter the park?
those stupid stray dogs ran out of the forest to chase us hahas
muz be us making too much noise lol
so yeah we ran off our course and take a de-tour back.
wasnt able to run much sia ytd
muz be tha lack of exercise nowadays hahas
let's go run someday soon once again!

my head feel so heavy now argh
so tired nw manz lol,i m losing my focus hahas
gonna drop dead in my room ltr=)
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2008-11-12T12:06:00.003+08:00

yoz finally i m here to post again hahas
& yeah my mood nw is ehhh,dunno?lol.
something which cant be described hahas cos i dun even know how to lol
first to reach school today manz,so cool!
but tha price paid is also huge argh

school life's been a lil much more fun than it was before
at least nw i could talk a lil more freely hehe
so yupp it isnt tat bored anymore
thou i still hab tha high tendacy to jus pon sch n go home hahas peace
well muz depend on tha module lahs

i jus knw smth,i habnt been much active in poly life lol
maybe it is due to tha mentality tat i wanna live in a quiet and peaceful time
tha thought of wanting to achieving smth isnt there hahas
seeing everyone achieving or having things to keep them busy makes me think thou lol
maybe i also should try it out too hehe
rather than sitting down n doing nth at all
maybe it will help me kill n balance my time well hahas
dun wanna be rotting away all tha time le lahs!
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edited

class today was quite entertaining
well i guess it because i did my work with real effort hahas peace
& tha topic is really interesting too
test tml omg,i wanna do well in it sia hahas

pray pray i can do well for it=)
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loving u nid no reason
& i'm missing u tonite here.

be it here or there or anywhere u r
my heart had alrdy been urs,being there wit u
telling u every moment,every min
i love u<3

2008-11-02T14:23:00.002+08:00

so once again i m here after quite some time lol
been out for tha past 2 days all tha time & yeah jus reached home
nth much lahs but yeah there still some entertainment of cos
went out wit them on friday to town

me jasper hing ronnie,razak met up wit us afterwards.
so yeah slacked at marina lors cos there's nth much to do tat day
chatted & psp-ed at bk while waiting for razak to come
was quite sianz & tired tat day lahs
cos nt been sleeping well since monday hahas peace
met up wit razak ard 10?
so we walked down to clarke quay as there's a halloween party goin on there
wahhh really make me so piss sia,
i really cant tahan tha crowd in there & also people were pushing here n there
but yeah tha event there seems fun & exciting thou
seeing people in different costumes walking ard tha place.
& razak molested one big werewolf LOL!
stayed there till last bus lors
went home use com & slp!
hehe easy and simple life rite lol

school is starting soon le!
omg i m so so sianz of it
i hate school lahs,always nv get enuff slp de
den somemore it so sianz to see tha faci face
oh please i wanna end my poly life quick manz
sick n tired of it lol
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i'm willing to sae 'i love you' to u a hundred times
as long as u wan me to.
u been so dear & close in my heart,
i've been thinking of u so so much too.
u teach me love,u make me miss & i wan u<3
wo ai ni,wo de xiao aiai
u nv step out of my heart b4,nv leaving my mind a single sec.

2008-10-28T09:35:00.004+08:00

hols started omg i m so damn excited bout it hehe
r u excited too?lol
okays lahs it only 1 week=(
hope to get enuff rest & fun thru tis whole week hahas

alright start wit ytd first
went out wit ron,jasper hing,razak & shah
first stop was at sim lim cos shah gonna get his things
den wenta suntec & marina for yeah arcade!
so cool manz hab so much fun ytd
went home ard 10 plus from clarke quay
reached ard 11 plus cos tha bus delay due to some stupid taxi
but yeah happy is tat got a free ticket once hehe
chatted wit ron & razak too
wah so fun manz to share & catch up things tgt hahas
gonna find one more day liddat & chat again
guys let's ton some day again!!!

hmm suddenly miss tha time when there's a small gathering wit 4B lol
hope to go out liddat again sia
it so so fun & exciting lors=)
i suddenly miss sec sch life lol!
omg tat so not me manz hahas
alrite peace.
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alright here a lil more update hehe
feeling so so sianz now arhs
nth much to do sia argh
been thinking whether shld i run or not todae
feeling so lazy but yet again i feel like running lol
well let jus see hw tha nite goes bahs

well i'll end here bahs
shall post again next time hehe
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i m feeling so blank!

2008-10-26T19:36:00.003+08:00

a day so so tired for reason i dunno why
luckily my hols hab finally come ler
meaning tat i sleep even longer nw hehe
well for a few days thou i could get jus a lil bit more rest

was staying overnite at ron's hs for 2 days lors
was gaming thru tha nite basically
afterwhich rested at home for a while & out i go hahas
sometimes i think i m becoming more & more like a robot
do not nid much rest & operating longer & longer
kinda cool rite hehe i know lol

life in school hab taken a lil beta turn
at least i m nt tat bored nw in sch
but arhs i still got tha high tendacy of trying to slack LOL
wahh i seem to become lazy argh
gotta work hard!!!i suppose?lol

The Coffin will be out on 30th oct
wahhh i feel like watching sia
anyone wanna join me watch it tgt?hahas
quite escited bout it sey hehe
but of cos tis cant beat my excitement bout my No. 1 fave movie
hehe peace,nt gonna name it here or else kena luff at hahas

okays shall write till here
will update asap again hehe
trying to work hard to blog more regularly
hahas well with that
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2008-10-23T09:26:00.007+08:00

wahhh i m so tired from waking up for school everyday
completely no motivation to push me to study now lahs hahas
i m so so rotting now le sey
omg just hope tat time could pass real fast so i can end this torture soon!
2 more days nia,argh i really cant wait lahs
just wanna lie on my bed and rest for as long as i could hehe
okays enuff whining manz,tahan tahan!

so yeah went for a movie ytd wit lil amanina lol
watched Eagle Eye at woodlands after sch.
hmm tha show is quite good huh,interest me quite alot
watched till 7 plus liddat so yeah went home lors lol
so tired sia after tat,must be lack of sleep bahs hahas
pity her sia,kena bullied by me till so cham LOL!
hols come le i swear to sleep like a pig=)

From the start to the end,it has always been a climax!

aww i m seriously like a lil kid hahas,
but!i dun care hehe cos i jus love tat show too much=)
finally i got all their songs
so lookin forward for tha movie too
okays peace,seems too enthu bout it liao lol

& there is nv a time,
i could stop missing u...
for u r jus tha gal i love in my heart<3
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edited
wenta buy dinner at LJS wit amanina at BP
saw sulaiman & jonathan there hahas
sounded like so long nv see liao lol
after which walked home lors
hab fun chatting wit u gal=)
& i jus found out i seems to lose my sanity sia LOL peace.

control me baby<3
my sweetest darlin medicine
ilu

2008-10-20T21:09:00.002+08:00

i m so high over tha moon right now hehe!
i know it bad lahs but i m seriously counting down to my hols
omg i seems so excited bout it
thou it only a week,but yeah i suppose i can get sufficient rest bahs=)
another thing is tat there's so many movies i wanna watch now omg!
but yeah my $$ arhs got big prob if i were to keep watching hahas
so yupp gotta restrict my spendings and all to tha minimum

oh ya,checked up my grades todae
& somehow i felt contented to get a B?lol.
okays peace i wonder why but jus tat it seems like my effort paid off hahas.
well maybe slowly i will be able to pick up my momemtum to study bahs hehe
hope so i would,PRAY HARD arhs!!!
but if i m lazy arhs,i dunno wat may happen hehe peace.

& even now i could still recall,
tha warm presence of u by my side
as we watch tha nite sky under tha clear quiet space.
aku cinta kau<3
you're always my love darlin

2008-10-19T19:21:00.002+08:00

wahh been so so tired even at home!
hahas anyway 1 more week to school hols
& i'm so so excited about it hehe
finally after 8 weeks of torture & i could get a break from those irritating facilitator lol.
my body hab been tired from all those work loads in school.

somehow my blog seems so dead sia wahhh
i gonna try to be a regular blogger again hahas
hmm anyway was at ron's hs last nite
gaming till midnite and yeah off to mac at plaza for supper=)
so yeah chit chat and catch up all the times
hahas was interesting huh to know things bout each other
my life seems to be revolving ard the same things sia
sch home lappy frenz,wahh i seems so inactive nowadays
maybe gonna hab to find smth to do le
or else i m seriously goin to rot to death hahas

somehow i miss those secondary school times sia
was looking thru those videos of 4Bs while bored
den yeah it seems like so long since everyone gathered together hahas
hope to get to hab fun wit everyone again someday soon=)

flowing with the melody...
i seems to be wandering aimlessly in life lol...

2008-10-07T10:10:00.003+08:00

hey hey!since i m so sianz in school,i might as well do some posting muahahaah
seriously i jus cant find the mood to study at all sia!!!
nth to motivate me at all lahs argh
tried my best,worked my hardest but yeah i just hate it too much hahas
& i still got to tahan for 2 more years!
habnt been really up to something this days argh,
can anyone find smth interesting for me to do?lol.

shall post more tonite if i rem hahas...
somehow there's this strange feeling in me hmm

2008-10-03T09:59:00.002+08:00

& i m so blur tat i could always forgot tat i wanna post smth here hahas!
so yeah now since i got tha time,i'll write it down here hehe
so yeah an outing wit my bunch of frenz on 30 sep(tues)
yeah only me,ron,kelv,jasper H,sulaiman,razak,yan ling,rebecca & limin
so firstly met up at ard 1pm at plaza
& off we head over to bugis hahas
slack ard at mos burger for awhile & yeah went to our usual hang outs,
THA ARCADE!muahahahhahas
i finally try out my V5!
& i m so happy to complete it hahas
guess wat,it super fun to bully ppl in tha public sey LOL!
so we guys gathered & sang a bday song to limin in tha center of bugis junction hahas
went down to marina square next=)
a game of bowling manz lol,& i m so so clowning ard
but yeah it was truly fun thou hehe
dinner at pizza hut hahas
jq joined us tat time & here we go joking ard even more
suddenly out of nowhere we sang tha bday song in pizza hut LOL!!!
hahas it was so funny manz,everyone was like staring hehe.
imagine tha face of limin?LOL!
but tha nice manager gave her a cake n played tha bday song.
afterwhich sat down at tha cinema there & chat...
so many stories & fun times during sec sch huh hahas
someday find time den do it again lol
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wenta razak hs at nitez as said hahas
& good me ate so much LOL jkjk
watched tha 9pm show at his hs there,omg i nearly fainted after seeing tha commercial.
but yeah intending to watch tat show from nw on hehe

hahas todae is another 1 sianz2 day
& i m stucked in sch manz kuku!
oh anyway HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY LIMIN^^

2008-09-24T09:25:00.003+08:00

& nth could be more sianz than being on wednesday,IN SCHOOL.
guess it the module tat piss me off the most lol.
i somehow seriously really got no mood to study at all nw hahas
can someone just remove tis boring module and get on wit it?
i hate such business shit manz,it so gonna rot me inside out!
i got the feeling i wan2 slp!
nth much to do at all argh

shall post a lil more ltr on,
cyaz

2008-09-19T17:06:00.002+08:00

alright i m seriously too too tired le lahs!
school hours seems to pass so slowly nowadays
due to lack of motivation,i m really reluctant to head to school hahas

somehow i still couldnt get along well wit the class lol,
so so sianz also the lessons.
oh forgotten bout ytd,the lesson was held in the lecture room,
wahh seriously the lesson really makes me luff lol.
As for todae,yeah i m so tired whenm i head for school
going to slp soon le bahs,i suppose?
see how it goes bahs hehe

been hanging out wit ron n vash nowadays,ANIME HUNT!
or jus plainly slacking away too hehe
chatted wit them n ernest bout :'what is our future?"
seems too mature rite?hehe.
secondary school frenz are still the best=)
& i m suddenly craving for my chipsmore & famous amos hahas

okays shall write till here for now=)
As the story goes on,
i'll hold you tight in my arms as we walk along<3

2008-09-10T13:05:00.002+08:00

& once again,i m back in my posting track.
time flies as i was rotting in school hahas.
was feeling a quite giddy today,& so yeah i couldnt go school.

tried to wake up but was too giddy in the morning,so i fell asleep back hehe.
still having a lil giddy nw!!!so awkward de
maybe it is due to lack of rest for the past 1 week or so
been going out n reaching home ard 1 plus midnite

well it fun at times but bored at times too
life is so plain!
i want to go out soon again hehe peace
i m nt the type to stay at home

how long will it be when i can see you again?
i miss you i miss you i miss you<3
wo hen xiang ni!
aku cinta kau
aiisheteru<3

2008-08-30T14:19:00.002+08:00

feels like a century before i came back here again lol
cant believe i didnt even post for such a long tome hahas

sleepy day,fun day,lovely day<3
went back to wsss wit the guys,so yeah got to see some teachers cos we r early hehe
we r still tha same!
as lame as ever,as funny as ever...
super fun to be hanging ard them.
lunch wit them and other gals also...
slacked ard in the library after tat wit my bros and rebecca & limin
well,we seems like so joker liddat fooling ard in the lib LOL!!!

nitez was cycling from ECP to changi beach
omg wat a long long route,and worst is tat i have to walk for dunno hw many km!!!
came home wit a body full of injuries lol
someone gonna nag at me lers hahas jkjk

it been a sweet & lovely day ytd<3
Miss ya lots<3

2008-08-09T10:41:00.002+08:00

hmm a lil update here lahs hahas
been so long ever since i last updated thisle lol
been quite tired and lazy to post

poly is okays,at least i hab some good frenz there nw hehe
but yeah at times it can be bore argh!
seriously cant take it at all lol
everyday in school really makes me sianzzz...
& i wonder why ppl love to go so much?

liars are always liars.
saying this & doing that,wat a nice thing to do...
scram out of my life if i ever found it out.

2008-07-21T15:08:00.002+08:00

okays!at least i have something interesting to say here...
it like wah finally manz.
yeah here goes,i'm so so excited after watching The Red Cliff!
cool manz,i gotta catch it again if i got the time hehe.

so yeah rewarded myself for enjoying my day tis morning,
so bought myself a double choco frappe
cool manz muahahaha
school is yeah once again bored,
wah how long hab i been saying that hahas
well it is indeed lol

let see how the days goes,
hmm we'll see lol

2008-07-13T14:33:00.003+08:00

YEA!i gotten myself one hoodie!
wah sey i love it so much muahahahaha
somemore with my name on it hehe cool!

kel bought a polo tee too hahas
gotta get another one next week or wat bahs LOL
hahas so yeah maybe gonna wear it someday when i got it lol

hab a fun time with kel & ron ytd nite,
ton at ron hs to game hehe
& nw i m so damn shag
but yea i enjoyed myself & tat all it matters lol

let's look forward to my next hoodie!
a white color one muaahahaha
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another boring days at home while resting lol

2008-07-09T20:57:00.001+08:00

been quite a long time ever since i updated lol
look so damn dead nw sia this blog hahas
well there nth much for me to update actually

days were so boring & i cant find anything meaningful to write here

2008-07-05T10:44:00.002+08:00

first is bout the day ytd!
so went out with jasper ronnie & kelvin
i completely lost my focus when i am playing my game argh!
well was so pissed off ytd that i couldnt stop thinking
alright peace i rather not talk bout it.
seriously he is going overboard!
so yeah that how me ron & kel feel.

should be going out ltr?
well i think so bahs
lol if i am not tired hahahhas!

let's see...

2008-07-01T20:25:00.003+08:00

boring days tiring days...life is jus so plain empty even after so long.
& i wan smth which is interesting lah!
argh...

still unable to adapt to poly life
hmm,guess i just couldnt make it hahas
i just hab the pure hatred for poly life
thou i knw ppl hab alrdy adapted to it,but yeah i just couldnt do it.

wah i m feeling so bored of life,
esp poly life!dun feel like going to school tml hmm
where can i go?hahas
& i been thinking of death sia...sound so cool liddat
& also so free hehe
no one else can think arhs!
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& i so sorry :(

2008-06-29T15:51:00.002+08:00

a tiring day indeed ytd hahas
went to so many places last nite
indeed it was memorable,we did hab fun(:
walk around throughout the nite without knowing where we are really heading
hahas the feeling is yeah...so COOL!

was quite tired when i reached home,
but yeah after a lil rest & here i m again.
hmm,plans for ltr anyone?
i m rotting at home lol.

2008-06-25T09:23:00.000+08:00

what more can this lead to?
other than much more loneliness & struggles.

2008-06-19T19:24:00.001+08:00

seriously...are there anything that can spice up my life?
i really feel plain bored argh!

2008-06-11T00:22:00.004+08:00

back from my super long day outing!lol.
been out since morning till nite muahahahahha
super fun but tiring also
& yeah i've been trying to smile today,well guess it is hard hahas.
who cares rite?LOL!!!!

guess what?i have a sudden interest in violin lately!
oh gosh i feel like learning it!hahas okays this sound so unlike me.
imagine the tough & crappy guy KUNDA suddenly love such a lovely instrument hahas!
"music which re-play your life,sang a beautiful meaning in it."
"as you watch the music flow,indulge yourself & enjoy such peace"
hahas!
oh god i'm so god damn crazy bout it.

i'm so crazy when i'm out with sulaiman ronnie & yeah jasper.
i suddenly sang on the bus,acting like another guy lol.
i guess i'm trying to be high today hahas.
quite an enjoyable day thou hehe.
oh not forgetting...i have a game of GUITARFREAK today sia...
DOUBLE ROCK you know LOL.
the feeling of strumming the GUITAR hors,is so SHIOK sia LOL.
no offence arhs
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indeed i'm deep in thoughts today.
but yeah,who cares bout it now?
just forget bout it & continue with my normal life=)

a past that is not worth cherishing,
a memory that should not be kept,
there is not a need to be sad bout it.
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2008-06-05T15:03:00.003+08:00

alright,i hab nth to sae BUT to sae i'm really BORED!
everyone seems so busy wit tat damn poly shyt.
argh!like no one to jio out nw hahas

been rotting for the past few days!
damn it,i hate such life.
please manz tis is a holiday,i wan2 go out!!!

oh ya,i been dying to watch koizora!!!
wait till i finish watching hahas,
i'll see whether i cry or not lol.
jkjk,i got a feeling i will watch it over n over again hahas.

finally my fever is down,so yeah i gotta get some fun hehe.
guess no one could be as siao as me to be jumping up n down when having a high fever lol
i m weird i knw hehe
a strong mind will overcome a weak body LOL,sound so chim.
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& when everything is nt by ur side,u feel so lost.
the day is closing huh,& somehow i couldnt really bring myself to smile.

2008-06-03T19:43:00.003+08:00

& every time i post,i will only be bored argh!
seriously i dunno wat to write nowadays sia
i completely do nth!
it so god damn sianz!
oh please,someone or something please spice up my boring life a lil argh

guess what,i can be bored enough to go play maple again hahas.
omg i think i hab become a lil kid lers.
well just playing it to kill some time thou hahas
so yeah after a few days guess i will be rotting again lol.

quoted from a show "do what you want to do,follow the voice in your heart"
cool rite i know hahas
what a beautiful & inspiring sentence.
dazzling words with hidden meaning beneath this spurring sentence.

argh i feel kinda sick,damn it!
seriously manz,die die also must tahan!
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2008-05-25T15:34:00.002+08:00

since when was it hab i been saving my post instead of publishing it?
hahas like so long ever since i post something up sey.
well might as well post smth lol.

it so boring nowadays even in school argh!
so much free time till i can even sleep arhs.
oh nearly forgot,ytd was seriously a funny day manz.
went out wit razak kel sulaiman & hing.
first stop,to marina hehe!
played pool while waiting for bowling hahas
i won almost every match sey,lucky day!
on the contrast sulaiman lost almost every one hehe.
RP rookie combo me & kel!LOL.okays peace
ended up at orchard den go home.
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& as the days passes,i couldnt help but fall so deep in love
with that lil heart of urs<3
you just makes me go crazy over you<3
i have been missing you alot lately gal...

2008-05-19T05:17:00.004+08:00

super cool thing of the day
i'm actually at airport posting this at 0521 hours
hehe super cool rite hahas,omg i couldnt believe it sia
i guess i gotta get super lots of rest at home ltr on lol
hmm,afterall today was quite a long day for me manz
first is to go out wit a lil kid yi lin hahas
den meeting ron & co. up to slack at air port for the whole nite

the outing wit yi lin was super funny de lors
kena suan by me whole day hahas
met at hfc first & yeah met wit milo may.
the shop did change quite a bit sey lol
guess things will change after time.
well maybe working on the holidays bahs hahas

so yeah after which headed down to PS for her anime plushies all this
oh b4 i forget lol,stupid yi lin!
go buy a plushie & i had to carry for her argh
shouldnt hab dare u sey lol
last stop at suntec for the anime hunt den wenta home
hahas poort hing sia she,kena taunt by me so much lol.
muz learn to go out more arhs u!lol lazy somemore lahs ltr u cant get ur things.
after a long time & i'm finally like back to suntec hahas
okays i'm really lazy to upload the stupid photos hahas
maybe next time.
hmm,ps arhs if i suan u too much lol
no offence at all=)

airport was quite fun but TIRING!
the trip back nearly kills me sia.
slept thru the train & jus woke up nw at home hahas
well nt really slping at home thou

guess i'm going out ltr?
let's see how it goes...
hahas

2008-05-16T23:23:00.002+08:00

i'm at a loss of words now as i listen to my fave song
"always be with me in mind."
suddenly feel so emo omg!

hmm back to today's topic hahas
so yeah school was quite okays i suppose?
the lesson didnt really give me much prob so well i can still manage it:)
class ends rather early today,so yeah went home first of coz
get some rest and ended up rushing out instead lol
catch the movie "what happen in vegas"
it was quite a nice show lahs,a comedy huh LOL
i still prefer horror movies hehe
gotta catch some horror movies soon,anyone interested?

emo emo emo!
gosh i seriously is emo-ing right now argh!
stab me & end my life manz.

2008-05-16T00:21:00.002+08:00

okays shall post a lil since i got the time to do so now
who knows before long i might be gone lol oh my i'm crapping!
lol

so yeah it been quite a stressful day now
thou poly life is slack on the surface,
well yeah u nv knw hw much stress i hab been taking in.
hahas gonna tahan!!!
jus another stage of life lol
u
so days was quite plain and simple
daily routine are killing me manz
gotta find something real siao to do HAHAS
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& i know i dun hab much time left.
that why i wan2 cherish every moment now.
who knows i may just drop dead in a blink of an eye?
even so,i want you to know...
even till my last breathe,I LOVE YOU DARLING<3
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misunderstandings are prone to happen
but when it all cleared up,
i can see hw close i m to you<3

if a 100 poems cant describe my love for you
den i shall give you my heart.
wit only ur name craved in it.

2008-05-11T14:18:00.003+08:00

argh was thinking of wat to post up hahas
but yeah seriously i m so bored nowadays tat i got nth to write!
nth much interesting now
hmm,everything is like so screwed up in my life hahas
well kinda liddat

& i can sae i m rotting at home now tat i feel like running out of my hs
LOL.
guess i shall go out for a walk later hmm
see how it goes bahs

it really a sianz day todae argh!!!
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suddenly i feel like dying sia
if this boredom cont lol

death will allow me freedom...

2008-05-08T15:47:00.003+08:00

okays!i m so super piss off in school!
thanks to tha new faci who jus like to ask this and that
think wat,everything muz folo rule de mehz,stupid old man LOL
hahas kays peace!

current indulging myself into something secretive!
so may be a lil busy for a moment hahas
hope things will turn out well thou
pray for my success manz!

& i hope to last long,
cos i love you.
& i hope to see you,
cos i miss you.
& i hope for you here,
cos i need you.

2008-05-01T14:52:00.004+08:00

so yea,since i'm bored so as well post a lil hehe
been rotting at home the whole day today
wahh i really bth!
i wan2 go out lahs,stay at home somemore & tml u see a skeleton of me!
hahas.

somehow or rather i feel so light todae,
thinkin stresses me out for quite sometimes.
& of cos because of the fatigue in me lol.

so yea here something i took during archery lol.
2 minor injuries causes by that snap twice lol

a robin hood training ground?

hahas so tat all.
another trial on archery next week too.
thanks to them for no left hander bow,
but i manage to shoot hehe
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"thinking too much causes arguements" a 'sage' once said LOL
so let calm the mind down & believe...

shall be posting ltr,
gotta roll ard in my bed lol
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2008-04-30T21:09:00.002+08:00

okays hmm todae can sae to be not my day lahs lol.
well everything was so negative i suppose.
guess is cause i didnt slp well bahs,
den woke up over early LOL
as early as 5.30am
cool bo?well i also dunno why i wake up tat time

class was fine & yea i managed to somehow survive thru todae
wit my tired body lol.
oh next is archery!
hahas was so funny lahs
i got comment on everything sia!
shot 4 tries,improving bit by bit wors dun play play arhs!
i came home wit 2 scars on my arm,kena snap by the string LOL
suay rite i knw

oh ya...& I AM NOT EMO ARHS!
lol
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wit faith,i'm holdin on tight.
wit trust,i'm believing in u.
wit love,i placing all my heart in u.
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& m i gonna rot tml?LOL

2008-04-26T00:51:00.007+08:00

jus came back from clarke quay after a short while of outing wit ron kel & sulaiman.
okays lahs,had a chat wit ron they all bout r/s all tis
duh it the usual chat mahs hahas
so yea,so many things to catch up wit lors

finally was like...a relief cause i could rant it out?
yea at least i had my bros wit me at my lowest point
thanks manz!
so yea things r over now & okays let it be.

learnt to jus take things as it is lors,
doesnt mean anything,but yea just let it be bahs.
i'll jus walk at my own pace & yea,i don't really wanna bother too much.
thou i did rant it out,but yea still there will still be some fears left.
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those chats with them suddenly makes me think of my past sey.
okay peace!
i'm contented wit my life now.
with you by my side,tis love tat will stay strong,
it enuff to last me till death.

i guess i will die peacefully manz.lol.

2008-04-23T16:04:00.003+08:00

i doubt i should voice out my thoughts,
i dun wish to cause any misunderstanding or anything.
my mind is confused,really really confused.
i'll jus sort things out as time passes.

things are rather hectic nowadays.
so many things to do due to my laziness.
hehe,well tat me i would sae.
so yea posting in class now muahahahaha.
due to my negative thinkings,i'm not really enjoying now.
& yea,i'm quite tired now hahas.
feel like going home soon.
argh!

shall be posting soon again later on=)
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sorry if i hurt you,
sorry if you cant take my joke.
guess i'm really one hell of a bastard to do it.
gotta need to think thru some things.
so as not to hurt you.

guess you really do smile more in that school.
& it a fact i'm unable to make you smile much.
do cheer up more with them den.
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putting on a mask,covering up my sorrows.
there's no one for me to share it with.
so let me just hide it deep.

i'll just smile to everything,
even if i'm hurted.
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it may seems plain or meaningless.
but yea,
i love you,really deep.

2008-04-22T21:34:00.002+08:00

okays,been a really rough day for me.
i'm really giddy now,somehow or rather argh!
things arent going smoothly at all nowadays.
wonder if it's my own thinking or wat,
but i really couldnt stand up after this fall hais.

class was rather funny today.
where's the coffee prince & the soda freeze?LOL.
was so funny in my grp,racking our brains on the prob.
den all give up hahas!
so it a piece of CORK. LOL!

that's my way of thinking,accept it or not up to you.
real sorry if it would hurt you.
but yea,i cant change tat mindset.
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i really had too much things in me.
so much that i would explode.
yet i cant say anything,understand how painful it is?

i wonder...

2008-04-21T16:06:00.003+08:00

hais alright all i can sae nw is i'm feeling damn low.
i seriously dunno wat to do now.
stressed up,confused & troubles just keep piling up.
argh i hate it!

so so many things is swirling in my mind.
i really dunno where to rant them to,
seriously i'm on the verge of breaking down.
when i nid someone to talk to the most,
just where did everyone go?
faking a smile is really tiring,
acting as in nth's wrong is really dreadful.
things are just getting more negative now.
hais.

i dunno wat expression shld i show nw.
i'm seriously confused!

do i really had to stand alone in this confusing world?

2008-04-16T21:25:00.002+08:00

okays posting time!
well ups & downs this few days lol.
same module every week in RP.
making me sianz arhs LOL.
the thoughts of dropping out never leave my mind sia.

today was a screwed up day.
okays solely reason was cause i m sick!
argh.i cant really think properly todae hahas.
most funny thing is tat i actually faint in class LOL.
w/o any notice,i jus fell to the table & blanked out.
causing so much troubles sia argh.
sorry gal if i did hurt u in anyway.
tat just me,being over-sensitive.real real sorry.
my brain werent workin properly too.

somehow i felt i had a wonderful gal by my side.
maybe she is just too perfect for me.
lol.but i just love her the way she is.
sorry if i'm troublesome or demanding too.
____________________________________
i suppose i can feel it.
my energy is being drained day by day.
maybe my death is nearing?
hahas.when it come,muz rem me hors!

2008-04-11T23:18:00.000+08:00

hahas okays i shall write a lil bout todae
sad to say but i nearly die manz lol.
i was so god damn sick lahs argh!
kena drench in the rain,stuck in air con for whole day omg.
can imagine mahs hahas,kena a fever in the end hahas.

i shld sae tat class todae was so fun!
suddenly i love my class so much sia hahas.
well everyone hab their own funs,she had hers i had mine.
i was surprised when my classmate actually noticed i'm sick earlier than kel or yea who i met earlier morning.
wanted to go home but yea,glad tat i stayed & join the class.
it seems tat we r having fun instead of lessons.
conflicts or peace?PEACE!!!!hahas

went home afterwhich.
seriously sia,i could feel i m panting & sweating all over as i jus walk
hahas at least i manage to make it thru hehe.
a strong guy always had a strong will muahahahahaha!
__________________________________
nth is as sweet as that smile on your face.
it was the image of you tat keeps me going.
i'll still be there as ur support no matter how hurted i m=)
loving u nids no reasons & time.
i just love u every moments.

2008-04-09T21:27:00.003+08:00

argh i m so god damn screwed lah!!!
i m feeling so damn unwell.
feel like banging the wall & die sia hahas.

well i couldnt hab much to write only to sae tat i had been thinking real lots now.
seems like i just couldnt get the negative thoughts out of my mind.
& yea it is always bothering me & worse still.i thinking even wilder!
sometimes i feel like takin out my brain & send it into the washing machine to wash.
hahas so i wouldnt think till liddat.

gotta rem!!!
trust & believe is the key.
so wat if gals r close to other guys.
as long as there's you in the heart,no one could win over her!
argh!!find it hard to screw into my head.lol

okays a lil bout my day.
today was a real tiring day at school.
thou i manage to make it thru,nw i m half dead hahas.

i wonder wat m i writing thou.
my brain arent working well hahas.
hope it isnt too crappy lol.
___________________________
i wouldnt knw wat to sae nw.
there seems to be no words that could express my love.
all i knw nw is tat i miss u truly lots.

2008-04-07T23:42:00.002+08:00

& here's my day i should say,
well things arent going well in RP.
i was so fed up with the system they set.
hais wat to do?just bear with it lors.
sort of like anti social in the class hahas.
well tat my style rite?

ended the class late todae,
damn the facilitator!purposely drag drag drag.
make me fed up!lol.
so after tat wenta meet kel & yea went home hahas.
thou i wenta some other places first.
hehe.
had quite a blast with him in school,
sort of like my only frenz there :(
can guess how lonely i m?lol.
sad rite i knw

i wonder wat got into me today also.
i seems so weird sia.
well unstable mentality hahas,got high & down lors.
my mind can run wild & suddenly i forgotten everything!hahas.
well not thinkin much is a bliss at times.

i had a fun day with you todae.
thou the time wit you were short,
yet i'll treasure every moment we spent.
no matter wat happen,i'll always love you.

2008-04-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

last day of my enjoyment of carefree life huh?
i m starting to feel hatred for school.
wat so good bout studying i wonder?
damn poly damn poly!only making me F*** up.
can i drop out of tat useless RP?

somehow i m really at a loss of words.
i dunno how should i describe my feelings now.
it so confusing argh!damn it lahs.
happy cos i m still with you,sad since poly started.
worried bout yea u knw,& excited bout how tis r/s grow stronger.
hahas i dunno hw to sae lahs.

well thanks to those who i confide into & yea for their encouragement of cos.
so yea,instead of thinkin negative,why nt i think positive huh?
hahas.life is much easier with it.
& i myself shld knw,by now how u r liked.
lol.

guess i'll be resting soon.
a new day tml,well thou it jus some stupid thingy.

it is always sweet to hab u ard me.
i'll cherish every thing u gave,
every moment with u,
every conversation we had=)

2008-04-05T09:28:00.002+08:00

& i seriously feel like a failure!
why m i becoming into such a jerk?
alrite i hab to blame myself for everything nw.

i was suppose to make u happy,
yet i make u sad.
supposing to make u believe,
yet i'm discouraging myself.
suppose to cheer u up,
yet u cried.
hais.i feel as though i couldnt do it right nw.
simple things yet looking complicated in my mind.

"dont let your past affect the present"
hmm somehow this sound true now.
i gonna move on rite?yea i muz.
i wan2 see ur happy & naughty smile once again=)
__________________________________
havin to work ltr argh!
like sianz sey hahas.
maybe there isnt her shadow ltr lol.

poly starting soon,
yea i gonna believe in us to last.
everything can be worked out=)

& i wan2 melt ur heart away with my love,
lovessssss you always wors!<3

2008-04-04T15:52:00.002+08:00

well i guess i dun hab anything much to write bout.
hahas yea days hab been quite plain now.
everyday seems so boring.
seriously,i really feel as if i m non-existent at all!

aahh down with a 'mild' fever.
my muscle & bones r cracking sia lol.
my brains going haywire.
well feelin beta nw of cos hehe.
tml hab to work!jyjy kd!
quite a day for me todae huh.
sort of like tiring yet fun eerr also bored?
hahas well at least i get out of my hs.
rather than rotting at home LOL.

poly starting soon,hehe.
i'll try to get excited bout it.
______________________________
ahhh it's about damn time...
counting down to ____________

2008-04-02T19:09:00.003+08:00

today isnt a day for me again hais.
everything just doesnt seems to go smoothly.
seriously it makes my mood so damn low.
poly shyt orientation,screwed up outing to wsss,& some other things.
alrite,i cnt take jokes todae,i dunno why.

things seems so negative today.
i m really tired,i tried not to think so much.
but yea my brain just cant do it.
i m damn confused,upset,scared.
fear suddenly clouded my mind,for once,i nv felt so lonely b4.
things could nv go worse than this.
argh.

well things will hab to become better rite
so yea instead of thinking negatively,why nt i try to stay positive.
everything seems beta when one is positive.
no much troubles,not much worries.
yea a whole load beta=).

thou things r changin as time passes.
i believe we'll still stand strong & make this love last :)
____________________
airte shall post ltr.

2008-04-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

one thing to sae.
FUCK RUPUBLIC POLY!_|__|_
one useless school & u expect me to go?
be proud tat u hab us in ur school.
dun be demanding manz,events here & there.
makin ppl piss off.
poly shouldnt exist,education shldnt exist.
u r jus a place to make ppl upset.
alright,i wonder wat happen.
i totally get fed up.
thanks to the poly shyt!

but nvm i gonna cool down rite?
since i found a solution lol.
thanks gal for hearing me out.
sorry too for my hurtful & aggressive words.

things arent goin well smoothly today.
well i suppose todae isnt my day hahas.
hope things beta tml=)

thanks gal for always being by my side.
tolerating my everything.
i love u gal.
if giving up my everything is the only way to be wif you,i will.
way bout u?LOL

2008-03-31T18:37:00.002+08:00

ahhh!my mind is quite blur now hahas.
just woke up from a lil nap.
guess wat,i'm sleeping in my shop sia omg.
so yea,thought tat posting here will be quite cool liddat lol.

been thinking hard on wat to write.
well sometimes i m always crapping away.
until i dun even know wat i'm writing.

well,today wasnt really my day.
things doesnt goes smoothly,my thoughts ran fairly wilsd.
somehow my emotions are riding on a rrolleer coaster now.
argh i dun really feel very good.
wan2 guess wat i'm thinkin?
lol well,guess no one could get it right. :)
quite confused now,hahas,wonder hw to sort it out.hmm

there's nth to think bout,
yet i wonder why i always create probs for myself?
complicated mindset hmm...

when a man is down,everything ard his world turns negative against him.

2008-03-30T14:46:00.002+08:00

re-edit my post now.
argh something seems to jam up in my brain.
i cant really think much of wat to write hmmm.

okays anyway,thanks gal for helping me to do up this skin.
i really appreciate it alot & of cos,i love this skin.

so yea today was a boring day to start with.
nth to do,only to rot at home hais.
i wan2 go out but dun think there's anyone to go wif.
well maybe i'll just get some rest ltr on.

gal,i hope u wun think too much bout wat i sae or write.
i dun wan2 see u thinking so negatively.
wateva it is,i'll nv sae bout leaving you.
so sorry gal if i happen to make you upset or think liddat.
_________________________________________
my brain is kinda jam now.
well shall post more ltr on.

2008-03-30T00:27:00.002+08:00

okays lah here a short post for a lil kid hahas.
hmm how shall i start with this?
okays here goes.

woke up pretty early thou i slept late last nite.
well was unable to sleep so yea woke up & stare at the com.
& so yea wenta town to meet up with ron they all after sending my lil gal to work hahas!
played alot of arcade.
tried battlegear 4,omg it was so damn cool sia.
really like a real car LOL.
dinner was so damn simple.
jus a hotdog bun with orange juice.
hahas simple yet filling.

this few days hab been so special?
i dunno how to describe this feeling.
but it seems so amazing & mysterious.
& i seriously hoping this would last :)

love is so mysterious.
for me to fall for you,it took me a lot of courage & trust.
& i wanna cherish it dearly.
for you whom my love now & the future.

2008-03-27T11:45:00.004+08:00

time passes again & here i am to post again lol.
it like my daily routine now sia!
i cant believe i can maintain posting liddat sey hahas.
okays guess wat,
i can actually be so damn siao to play wif adobe.LOL!
nth to do so die die also find things to kill time hahas.

okays here my ugly masterpiece hahas.
look somehow weird thou hehe!

argh i m sick & tired of staying at home lah!
i wanna go out,do anything also can!
i just wanna head out lah.
i'll rot like siao sia if i keep staying at home hahas.
a sudden urge to go to marina suddenly lol.
guess i shall head down alone ltr.hmm see how bahs.

& i m a idiot today to make you upset.
i wonder wat can i do to make u happy again?
seems like i m really a jerk.
________________________________
i dunno how to express it out.
cos there's only 3 words in my heart.
i love you.

i got a feeling i m posting crap nowadays hahas.

2008-03-26T11:59:00.002+08:00

once again i re-do my post.hahas.
been finding ways to write it so i could express my day in a diff way.
must be creative mahs,tat wat the zeng hu sae de.LOL.

so yea firstly bout ytd.
damn the house of wax!
i nearly puke sia after watching it.
so gross sia the torturing & killing process.
alright but i did luff lah,cos ron & ernest expression jus look so funny lol.
hab dinner at plaza ler den wenta back to play my cabal hahas.
cool sia tat game.

alright,i so gonna head out ltr if possible.
i m sick & tired of staying at home lol.
it is so damn boring.
______________________________
those fears just clouded up my heart,
i wanna hang on,i wanna love u despite tat.
tell me that i could believe in you.

the thoughts of being in diff places is scary.
hais too much thoughts lers.

2008-03-25T14:33:00.003+08:00

okays,re-do my whole post.
felt so crappy just nw hahas.
maybe i m too confused to even think properly.
so tired now,mentally & physically.
hais,somehow i dun feel like caring anymore.
maybe i m too stressed up,argh!
i hate such thing.
i wanna de-stress someday argh.
proably go out tml or wat for a walk.

sometimes i wish i wouldnt think so much.
or maybe being blur or smth.
at least i wouldnt nid to wry bout so many things lol.

now tat everything is starting to change,
but yea i still couldnt accept it at all.
maybe,i should really quit studying.

i m scared of the future of us.
but,w/o trust & believe ,what can we achieve?
so i rather place all my trust in you.
i believe in u,who is faithful.
i trust in this love,which will get stronger.
______________________________
preserve this time now,take it on to the future.
i believe it possible.

2008-03-23T22:59:00.002+08:00

been at home the whole day today hahas.
cool rite i m able to do it.
oh well i was ban from going out too.
due to my eye becoming more serious,
so yea i couldnt see.

been sleepin & playin com tha whole day.
so yea quite borin but slack.
best thing is tat i actually didnt try to think negatively much.
i seems to be like a rich young master sia.
enjoying air-con,while checking out the net & slacking using my lappy.
wat more is with food & drink by my side OMG!
cool rite,how slack can i get hehe?

thinking back,it had been quite long huh?
i m able to hide my feelings real well hahas,but did do some small actions.
isnt love amzaing,to bring ppl from 2 diff world tgt.
i cherish every moments with you now,even if it only a min=)

dun think too much ler kays,
who cares bout poly matters!
we'll be tgt always,i'll nv leave you darlin<3
i love you lots,sayang.
omai aiisheteru
wo ai ni
aku cinta kau<3
kita akan bersama untuk selamanya or somehow liddat.hehe

for you i will
with you i shall
you'll nv be replaced.

2008-03-23T11:00:00.002+08:00

aahhh i cant see now with my left eye damn it!
gonna see a doc bahs lol
or i will go blind manz

was called to work ytd at the last minute
so yea went down of cos lah,just tat got hors a lil gal wanna snatch my work.
hahas evil rite she,sobs sobs.jkjk
okays lah anyway thanks lah,cos i also cant work too.
go off abt 8pm liddat.
oh well ytd mood at work was the most funny one.
from noisy to quiet & quiet to crappy LOL.

oh ya sorry bro for unable to find u guys.
shall meet up soon=)

every moment with you is worth cherishing.
sorry gal for mentioning bout those poly things.
i said w/o any intention to hurt you=(
really sorry.
hope ya dun mind wat i sae.

from now on,things are getting more complicated.
i'll choose to believe in my future self.
the future with you,cos i dun wan things to change.
i love you too much le gal<3
_________________________________
there's always a risk in love.
if it me in tha past,i would hab left.
but for you,i wanna take tat risk & love you even more.

2008-03-21T10:11:00.002+08:00

hmm well nth much to write bout for ytd.
was quite boring lah nowadays.
nt much ppl wanna go out lers,hais wonder why?

met up with ron,irvin & kelvin at abt 9plus.
so yea sat down at plaza for a lil chat lors.
afterwhich went for supper with ron & irvin.
long time since i ever do such things with them hahas
well was quite tired to start with but yea i still can manage lahs lol

hab been thinking so negatively this few days.
well now i just dun wanna think anymore,
i just go a step at a time.
if a feeling is really deep,it will definitely last no matter what happen.
i shall the sae the negative part=)
cos i believe in you gal.

alright hab to prepare soon liao b4 i m late.
hehe ou kimi mina-san!

"you can buy many products with a lot of money,but my love is a limited product which only you can have."

2008-03-20T08:51:00.005+08:00

i hab to admit my head gonna burst!
okays maybe there's too much thinking this few days.
even now i couldnt help but to think.
the fears in me is starting to cloud my heart.

been trying very hard to believe tat everything gonna be alright.
but yea tha facts & time really make it hard for me to do it.
so many things obstructing me,i seriously cant feel peaceful at all.
everyone been telling me to believe,assuring me nth will be wrong.
hais but those fears just cloud me more.
the past & the thoughts of poly really screw me up.
polys are jus bastard schools built by impotent ppl=)
ytd chat wif ron,ernest & online chat wif shah is enuff to shake my resolve.
& yea thanks guy for trying to encourage me to go on.

yea reality is cruel,just face it everyone.
in my eyes,everything is diff.
until the day i see that things can go smoothly,
i wun trust it completely.

somehow i m just so confused to write.
i wish to vent it out someday,somewhere.
3yrs,3 whole yrs.
omg wat shld i do?
oh gosh severe headache lol.

cos i love you too much that i really dun wanna lose you.
those thoughts of you leaving makes me fall.

okays shall post ltr,i gonna get some rest hehe.

re-updated
wondering now,why m i always being so timid?
fearing of this & that,how am i going to love rite?
gal i'll believe u with all i can,& make it last wif all my heart.
for all those sad/hurtful thoughts i had,i wanna overcome it.
& love you whole-heartedly.

2008-03-19T11:34:00.003+08:00

okays re-do my whole post now.
somehow my whole mind is so confused.
or to be exact,is tat i m scared.
yea sort of such feeling.

hear how's poly life when i was in RP.
long study hours,changing of class each term.
alright it enuff to freak me out.
things are the same in every poly i suppose.
which means,yea,for sure a distant r/s would definitely become weaker.
lesser time tgt,means more time wif poly frenz & yea guys.
oh gosh i m so terrified by this fact.
even thou i believe in you,but somehow i just cant stop imagining it.
the picture of you with another guy,being so close.
yea i m so afraid tat history would repeat.
i feel like crying out loud,screaming all those stress & troubles.
sharing wif someone my worries.

seriously i m really confused & scared.
things are going to change,& i dun wanna accept it.
i feel like quitting school,the thoughts of it really scared me out.
poly sucks.

& i m so sorry that i couldnt trust you completely.
too many thoughts just clouded my mind with fears.
i'll try,my best to believe in you.

why do i always doubted things?
screw my past,i hate it,really!

there's so many stress n fears now that i really gonna cry.

with u by my side,i m sure i can recover de.
thanks gal for those encouragement.
daisuki desu yo!

2008-03-17T21:15:00.004+08:00

alright i dunno wat got into me
i somehow feel tat i m pissed off.
argh unable to go out today really makes me rot like siao.
i cant believe tat i actually felt lonliness again damn it.
a feeling which i dun like at all.
been getting this feeling lately,
sort of like i m getting outcasted?
or m i isolating myself?

too much thoughts today,
the past the present the future.
i m too tired for anymore thoughts.
oh gosh i m starting to get moody even more!
too much stress in me i suppose,

i dunno why,i m getting even more frightened of this world.
everyone seems so scary to me now.
contrasting words,tat wat i found out.

i cant believe i m actually this scared.
i seems to hab lost my only pillar of support.
life sucks to the core.
someone,jus end it for me please.
living is really meaningless now.

sprained my wrist for no reason lol,
now i wonder why it didnt sprain my spine or neck?
maybe i would hab died.

for all i know,
i m completely stressed up.
hope by tml i m okays=)
sorry gal to make u wry.
i will always be ur support no matter wat.
dun forget,tat i m ur last pillar=)
lean on it if u nid.
cheer up too kays=)

2008-03-17T13:59:00.003+08:00

i m lost now,dun really know wat to write anymore.
life is just too plain nowadays argh!
nth to enjoy about sia,nth to share or what.

poly starting soon argh!
& yea i hate poly,i hate everything now.
is it possible to stop studying?
everything is so screwed up lahs.
somemore i cant get my vaio!
aahhh i wanna vent out sia!
anything for me to whack?

seriously my mood is so damn low nw.
nth goes right these days,
can i just end my life like tat?
i m so tired just by hanging on to it.

sometimes i blamed myself for being useless.
hais.
i arent there for u when u r in nid.
i cant coax u well when u r down.
i cant do anything at all.
_____________________________
life is just a game,
death & pain are only price to pay in this game.
that why it is just an option in my eyes.
but it seems like i m only a step away from it.
_____________________________
i wanna watch RULE NO. 1 lah.
omg i hab been complaining bout it lol.

faith,believe,trust,love,misses,thoughts,memories,moments.

& gal i'll believe in you,
sorry if iit takes time.
for all i know,
i love only you & i wun look at other gals<3
my one & only dearest darling

2008-03-16T14:49:00.003+08:00

alright a lil posting here hehe.
gonna head out soon.
nth much to do today argh feel so boring suddenly.

ytd was rotting the whole day
hope it wun be the same today
life seems to hab lost it funs,
it is so plain for me to even post.

hais poly starting soon huh?
i dun wan it to sia.
the thoughts of it is enuff to freak me off.
i dun wan the life now to change a single bits.
dun wanna study anymore,i hate it.
i cant cast away the fear in my heart.
it gonna tear me apart soon!

i cant imagine the life if i lose u.

omg why i got emo suddenly?
________________________________
& ytd i had the sweetest dream ever.
if only tat moment would last forever.
i cant believe i had such a wonderful gal by my side<3
wo hao ai ni wors!

2008-03-15T08:59:00.006+08:00

once again i m rotting at home argh.
everyone's busy today hahas,oh well i m ill fated bahs LOL.
seriously got nth to do at home,i cant possibly sleep the whole day.
so yea thought of doing a lil bit of posting to kill time.

anyone got any ideas where shld i go?
hmm maybe i shall head out to fantasy ltr on bahs.
it's time to think thru some things now.
able to relax at there also,vent out all my stress!
where did everyone go when i nid pplz to talk to the most!
omg i gonna explode hahas.

ahh i miss chalet arhs!
not only me arhs kel share the same sentiments hehe.
somehow feeling sianz staying at home LOL.
whereby at chalet we all get to tgt,fool ard & chat all this.
when will be the next chalet?
______________________________________
omg my mind is filled with the thoughts of dying.
i can see how i die,dream of it or even thinking of it.
hahas my life reaching to an end soon?

what's wrong with me getting a song vaio?
i wonder why muz my family object it so much.
is this mine or theirs,i m studying or they are?
fucked up life.

today is really not my day hais.
___________________________________

2008-03-14T14:27:00.003+08:00

a day w/o com nearly kills me.
finally back & yea of cos i gonna pen it down LOL.
& yea i gonna complain!
i m very very tired now,hahas.
feel like sleeping but cant sleep,argh!

i want to watch my show lah,RULE NO. 1!
since b4 it came out i m alrdy excited bout it.
yet up till now i habnt even watch it hahas.
funny rite oh well i barely can find the time to go also.

poly gonna starts soon,damn it.
can i stop studying huh?
everyone stressing me out to study,& they didnt even understand me at all.
i don't like to study & i don't want to study.
oh well i guess i just have no freedom to choose my own path.
someday i will pick up my final option.

too many things are bothering me lately.
not really in a very good mood argh.
i want to vent it out sey,anyone willing to be the sandbag hahas?jkjk.
___________________________________________
ya know,death is a form of release.
a few seconds of pain in exchange of a lifetime of freedom.
if i die,i would be granted new life & freedom.
good deal isnt it?lol.

omg i becoming weird hahas,well i wouldnt choose such roads also.
___________________________________________
tough as it will be,but i believe we will be able to last.
Believe,it a strong word in love.

2008-03-12T15:41:00.004+08:00

hahas yoyo back from the class chalet muahaha
oh well i can say it was fun & also screwed up at times too
i hab much fun there,but yea i wasnt really enjoying myself.

first day
okays,it was a very eventful day for all i can say.
best day of the chalet hahas,when everyone was so enthu bout it.
oh well everyone looked so happy & excited,but i wonder why i cant act that too.
cycling in the afternoon first alone.
well was thinking of cycling,& some reasons too.
to calm myself down,to isolate myself,think of some matters & trying to die.
was completely exhausted & worn out when i went back.
hehe i forced myself to push my body & heart over the limit,COOL RITE!
my style of training & to stop thinking too much=)
was moody & sad at tat moment so yea such methods suits me.

they hab their bbq while i tried to rest.
took me hours b4 i completely recover damn it!
& worst is they locked up my bike hahas.
those malays went off first while we stay overnite there!
guys went cycling,gals stayed in the room,me n jon rested in there too.
for a short moment when jon was away,they all gang up to bully me.
aHhh,a poor & innocent guy bullied by some gals(well 'some' r kid,no offence)
was nearly raped by them sobs sobs~!

went cycling during midnite.
here a pic taken
something up there?
from pasir ris to changi & back.estimated to be 10km.
rested when we went back.
so crowded for sleeping,so yea i was nearly kicked by limin sia,leg on my head when i woke up LOL.

2nd day
slacked most of the time in the room.
but yea it was a time when everyone actually gather to play a game.
hahas so cool rite.
went for arcade all this.
walked ard at nitez lors hahas,& yea everyone was quite high huh!
nth much to write bout ytd hehe.
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so sorry gal for making you worry so much.
i m perfectly fine,thanks for ur care/concern.
you are always there for me when in need,always being by my side.
it alrdy happy enuff for me to know u care.
so sorry to let you drop ur tears,when i said i wouldnt.
guess i didnt treat you good enuff,sorry if i failed ur expectations.
& yea i m also worried for you when you are hurted.
take really good care of urself kays?
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i miss you badly gal!

here's some pix i took on the way back hehe!
not very nice but well jus posting up.

blurry vision LOL

guess what that?

2008-03-10T09:39:00.002+08:00

chalet's today omg.
somehow i lost tha motivation to go
my chest is aching like siao since last nite damn it
it's hard for me to breathe,wonder how to cycle ltr on.
i dun wanna fall from my bike again!
oh well i guess i take a longer rest bahs.

i gonna be away for 3 days from my com.omg!
i m so gonna miss my com so much~!
a day w/o com is equivalent to death.
on the other hand my sis gonna like me alot,for she can use the com 3 whole days!
hahas,i sound evil sia saying like tat.

many many things are in my mind,gonna let it out today
i hate such feelings inside me.
sometimes i wonder,why must humans be gifted with emotions & feelings?
anyone know the answer?
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it's quiz time!
Q: What the next step to take after you had enough fun in this world?
ANS: take a step forward & enjoy the next thrilling experience,death.
(Death is becoming part of my thoughts now)

oh gosh somehow or rather i become so....undescribable?
but hab anyone wonder abt death?
i m curious to start wif hehe.
but i wun be dumb to die,when i hab someone whom i loved=)
_______________________________________
i can still see the days ahead with you.
& i believe you are still in my picture even in the future.

2008-03-09T14:45:00.002+08:00

1 word for the day 'tired'
hahas i m god damn worn out sia argh
feel like sleeping but cant really sleep
wan2 rest also feeling awkward
it is so boring at home lahs

time passes really really slowly today omg
& i tot i took a nap,yet only 1 hr hab gone LOL
might be going out ltr to slack,yea mostly slack bahs hahas
still gonna get smth hahas,been telling myself yet always forgot

chalet on tml=)
i can see the image of me cycling thru everywhere muahahaha
well i dunno how they plan abt the chalet or wat
heard tat it was srcewed up or smth bahs hmm
let see how it goes bahs
going there on my own,wonder how i tahan the loneliness
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Q: How do you sleep forever,never to care for anymore things?
ANS: Death is the only way out,a equivalent trade for life to stop & to obtain a new gain.

2008-03-08T11:00:00.002+08:00

i cant tahan staying at home again lah!
argh i wanna go out,go out,go out!!!
seriously rotting at home is killing me
anyone care to go out today hehe

counting down to chalet is only lesser than 48hrs
ahhh it time to cycle!
i wonder wat the plan for the chalet,but mostly i will be alone LOL
i cant imagine how much fun will there be there
omg i m so excited suddenly LOL

okays due to insufficient rest last nite
i m so god damn restless today
argh suddenly got too serious into thinking last nite!
until i m so awake
will hab to rest early today or i will die arhs!
hahas

hmm a short post for now,shall post a bit later
resting in progress

2008-03-07T10:20:00.002+08:00

argh!once again i m going to rot at home like siao today
I - DUN - LIKE - IT - AT - ALL !
wanna go out sia,buddies all missing.
wanna game,but dunno wat to play.
watch shows or smth,nth interesting at all.
kaos i dun wan2 lie on the bed & rot like ytd lah!
how i wish there will be a sudden call to ask me to work!
at least i hab smth to do hehe
rather than staying in a cube all day
anyone hab ways to kill boredom?
hmm maybe i shld try some arts on my hand again hehe

time really passes so slowly now
omg i'll be really dead when nite fall

getting pissed off wif the poly shyt nw argh
okays lah in conclusion: gov just lack money,so knock some money out of us.
all other application are jus a cover up for their greeds
wat a disgrace to the beauty of kindness
nw i know why i dun recognise my 'place'

today is really a suay day for me lah
pissing me off early this morning
wat other things ltr on?
oncoming chalet,cont cycling,tremendous fatigue
muahahahaha i m so excited abt it
i got a feeling i will ended up in the hospital after tat LOL
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question for you guys:
Q: A best way to resolve all problems in an instant?
Ans: Death,omg all my conclusion always come to this,hmm hinting me huh.
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u'll nv guess how much i miss you now
it telling me not to let go of u no matter wat<3

2008-03-06T12:11:00.006+08:00

hmm i wonder wat shld i post nw
quite tired hahas nv get enuff slp bahs
thanks to the freezing weather this morning argh

alright i m so damn bored,rotting at home argh
listening to songs to kill time
i wanna go out arhs!
cnt tahan staying at home lah!!!!!!!
i wan go arcade,i wan to go to FANS,i wan to get out of my hs!
hahas i tink i going siao liao alright relax...

hmm maybe i gonna go out soon
BUAY TAHAN ARHS!!!
where my brothers...let's go out huat!

oh yea i show u all my fave turtle!
CUTE RITE I KNOW!

chalet coming hehe!
& i gonna cycle once again,tis time i gonna challenge even more
anyone gonna cycle wif me thru the day?LOL
it gonna be a non-stop race lol

ahh i miss working suddenly sia
hahas i miss the toys the shop the pplz there
i miss my super crapping partner tat dumb yi lin!
i miss those bullying & times when i bully them there hehe
gonna go back soon hehe
_______________________________
a person when being forgotten,will lose it existence
& forever wandering in time
right here,right now,my existence is being denied
my world hab been torn apart too many times.

one more question guys:
Q: What will you do if you are being left out?
ANS: Death,since there isnt anyone in the world who cares.
______________________________
i cant imagine the pain if i lose u someday
for i just love you too deeply

humans cant be trusted completely afterall

2008-03-05T12:30:00.003+08:00

okays after such a long trouble finally i get to post
argh nearly make me fed up! hahas

counting down the days huh before poly starts
hais seriously i hate it
i dun like it at all,enuff of studying but even separated
never ever will i be enjoying poly at all

argh too many things are stirring in my head
somehow i m being annoyed by it
another question here hmm:
What the easiest way to get rid of troubles?
ANS: death,well it seems all i can get is to die huh.

all because of 1 damn poly thingy is able to make me so fed up
somehow i support the mr brown show for insulting singapore sia
sometimes it is quite true also hmm

once again i gonna enter a course alone
& yea i guess i will nv be nice there=)
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a strong belief isnt enuff to make a love stay strong
what is needed is trust between both to stay faithful
chim rite i know lol

& yea all i know nw is to love u
things arent gonna change even poly starts=)
to hab met a gal like u is my fortune
to love u is a true happiness
i cant imagine wat will happen if i lose u=(
for i enjoy every moments wif u nw

gal somehow i m scared hais
i may appear to be fine but u nv know hw scared i m inside
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soon,very...very soon
it's time huh
death is just an option in my eyes
i m just a step away from it

2008-03-04T08:52:00.003+08:00

ehh dun really know wat should i write abt sia hahas
oh well was really deep in thoughts tis few days
dun really know wat i m thinking also LOL

okays i have got 1 thing to complain manz
oh yea it's abt work hehe
I M SO DAMN FED UP WIF SOMEONE(prefer nt to name) for making me pissed off during work
argh dun try to act bossy when u r nt one
& i swear i nt gonna be nice anymore if it happen again

chalet coming soon huh
well i suppose i may be going bahs
i so gonna cycle until i drop dead or faint hehe
no one gonna stop me manz LOL
cycling is my only enjoyment muahahahahahaha

poly days starting soon
hmm the thoughts of it is enuff to make me sick
i hate studying i hate schools i hate education lah
separation from my frenz also WTF
impotent guys who did all this_|_
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i m so gonna cherish every moments now
not only nw,every moment wif u in the future too<3
loving is abt believing. if there isnt any trust in both,it will not last
i'll always believe in YOU,in the future You said=)
______________________________
well was just wondering...
what the last option to walk when everything is gone?
ANS: death,which you will free yourself from suffering=)

2008-03-02T07:40:00.003+08:00

somehow or rather today is weird for me
as in i feel something strange abt today
hais is it because it might be our last time working tgt?
i hope it wun=(

i gonna die from over-exhaustion someday hahas
but yea i would rather see her more & spend more time wif her
maybe i will jus rest a while ltr on at the shop

ytd was a super crappy day sia hahas
stupid yi lin like nv bully me for a long time
ytd bully me like siao sia along wif milo LOL
i m so so innocent!

fear & sadness r bound to exist
but why nt cast them away & believe in each other?
i believe u gal & i wun let u go
& of cos i wun leave u for sure
being wif u makes me really happy & proud<3
aiisheteru sayang<3s__

___________________

some lyrics here...but yea tat wat i wanna express to you

If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you,
If you gave me one chance to tell you how I was feeling,
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes,
And you know I'd never let you go.

2008-03-01T07:34:00.002+08:00

aahhH!!! hab to work again argh
i m gonna be so dead ltr on hehe
blame me for sleeping late again

i heard my schedule would nt be so pack next week onwards
hais which means there will be lesser chances to see her
i wnana see U more!

oh yea saw the riot police ytd nite
so cool lah can see such things
but in another words it means it dangerous?

gotta head for work lers
shall post more tonitez

everything i said is truly & solely for my one & only YOU
i was really happy to hab u wif me ytd there
i may nt express it but yea i wanna cherish u more than anyone else
wo aii nii<3

2008-02-29T13:20:00.002+08:00

alright i m so gonna re-start my posting
i shouldnt be so emo-ing or thinking so much rite
yea i should be who i m now & the days on
jus because of one poly thingy nearly brought me down
but yea i rem something impt
quoted 'no matter how tough the hardship are ahead,i'll always face it with a smile!'
somehow it really keep me moving

been down the whole morning
well should be affected by last nite conversation bahs
one word "believe"
tat wat we all agreed on last nite

Love wun be strong if there isnt any mutal trust between each other
& only when there is trust will the love become stronger
LOL chim?dun think so lah hahas

so yea i know for sure definitely i can pass thru tis poly thingy!
hehe i take on this challenge

so many words to be said to you
but yet i only wanna tell you...
i love u i miss you i wan u i nid u i wanna see u!
gal u r always tha dearest in my heart<3
saya cinta anda saya merindui anda

2008-02-29T01:02:00.001+08:00

i got nth to say but to apologize

so sorry gal that my joke hab hurted u in any way

i didnt mean it at all

love ya<3

2008-02-28T09:23:00.005+08:00

alright i totally dun hab enuff sleep!
woke up in tha middle of the nite damn it
den stupid rebecca called me early in the morning to disturb
argh nw i m so tired!!!

okays lah nvm do some posting first
i m 'forced' to do this quiz hahas
i know lame lah but yea jus do
i m bored btw hehe

Quiz.
Answer the questions listed below, honestly and tag five people to do it.
The 5s

Five things which you love/like:
1. surely the first thing is always cycling!alright tat my FAVOURITE sports okays!
2. to sit down alone to stare in the nite sky=) weird rite i know hahas but i can get a peaceful moment for a while
3. going out all day long for funs & slack all these.cool mahs when u r able to do such things,make me feel like an adult
4. definitely my brothers,my frenz,& yea my sweetheart<3 LOL
5. my hp for sure nth could beat it manz.take it away & that the end of my life hahas

Five things which you dislike:
1. anyone who flirts,back-stab,liars or so wat-eva.that for sure i mean everyone would hate them right
2. to get myself into too much thinking.somehow or rather it will makes me feel sick & upset.being simple minded & carefree is the best to stay happy=)
3. can i say myself?no reason but i just hate the way i m now LOL
4. to see a doc.for sure they give me all those stupid thing to eat
5. violence.& yea i vow before nv to use my punches=) people who are violent are always dumb

Five things you wished for:
1. For my bicycle!i wan2 be the first singaporean to enter the world greatest Tour,Tour De France!alright i m serious for this.
2. to die soon?the thoughts of dying are always in my head & yea maybe someday i would just ended my life=)
3. a slacking,carefree life with money rolling in like no tml.cool rite then i don't need to work hehe.
4. The End of the World.well just feel that everything should end before things got worse : )
5. Fuck poly away HEHE

Five things you usually do:
1. using my com w/o a doubt it a must everyday.
2. bullying & teasing people hehe.
3. working lah damn it abuse my policy.
4. rotting at home LOL
5. talking with my buddies=)

Five people you tagged:
dun think i will even do tat manz hahas.i will be killed if i did.

i always hab tis lil kid thinking sia
i wanna last this love even after poly
m i being dumb?

i love you<3

2008-02-27T07:36:00.002+08:00

omg i m seriously too tired liao
dunno whether i can keep up wif work today mahs
i wanna sleep more sia!
i hate the person who plan my schedule manz haha
tink i m robot is it can work like siao
i hate to work alone!
kaos sia i m gonna be so damn boring ltr on
hais

argh i tink i m gonna get sick soon
feel so weird lately
might really hab to get serious rest soon
gonna head out for work soon
& yea shall post ltr on=)

& i wan2 see ya everyday if possible!
i m seriously missing you alot...
Love ya gal<3s

2008-02-26T09:15:00.004+08:00

alright i cant post much today
a sudden call for me to work LOL
alright i somehow hate this thing
spoil my whole plans argh
well i hab got no choice hahas
a 9 hours todae wif a 12 hours tml omg
i gonna cry liao hahas
nvm i m sure i can take it de hehe
i suppose so bahs
i m so so tired sia
how to work properly?
hahas think i sleep on tha bus bahs

i found a new song again!
shall upload it tonite if possible hahas
it is so damn nice lah
well it is a japanese song of cos hehe

wrok starts at 1pm huh
hais no mood to work sia
anyone can come to acc me?
hahas i so gonna rot there liao

okays shall post ltr on then
shall prepare for work soon

so near yet so far
i miss u so much!
how i long to see u almost everyday lol

i thank you for loving me no matter
how i am and for being beside me always
words are not enough, surely i won't be able to catch up
words are not enough but, but, thank you

LOL

2008-02-24T07:38:00.003+08:00

omg woke up so early today
reason=having to work argh!
i wan to sleep more lah!
hahas slept too late last nitez
well was doing something & yea wasnt completed yet

heard of my next week schedule
well i dunno if it is true
i gonna hab to work 3 FULL SHIFTS!
omfg how m i gonna survive sia
walao my 'use me as u wish' policy was being abused!!!
i muz throw some of the time away or i will die!

okays bad news for the day
well was 2 nitez ago i suppose
grandpa was admit into hospital
hope he can discharge tml of cos=)

i hab nth to sae except 3 plain simple words
i love u<3
tat wat u mean to me

2008-02-24T00:49:00.004+08:00

hahas i m like so weird today?
i can actually spend so much on coffee?
hab a cup of coffee wif ron zayar n hing at IMM
after our search of things

my iced mocha!

i love the choco taste inside sia
seriously quenched my thirst=)
me n ron hab the same drink well zayar hab his own blackcurrant coffee?
hahas

our coffees!!!

today was an interesting day though
i was whacked by 'someone' sia
hahas violent arhs LOL jkjk no offence
but doesnt hurt at all lah lol

re-assuring isnt enuff
tat why i wanna prove to u i can do it
i believe in u too=)
so yea feel safe for i wun leave ya kays
always here for u=)

& i love u so much tat i cnt imagine life w/o u

2008-02-23T10:27:00.003+08:00

yea watched L changed the world
hehe was so damn nice lah
i like it so much sia
well the ending was quite sad though
ending with the hero died?

quoted a line in the movie
"No matter how gifted one is,He himself cant change the world."
aahh so cool lah when L said tat
& yea it is quite true

hab a few games of initial D b4 watching
hahas i love to race
somehow it make me forget all those troubles for a moment
i broke my record again hehe

ahh my injuries are hurting me so much!
somehow i think i hit my bones lol
consqeuences for riding too fast?

gal i love u more than u think
& with tat feeling i dun think i can ever leave u
each & every moment i m always thinking of u
allow me to hold those hands of urs & walk tgt will ya?